Trial of Faith

I feel so confused

All my life I have tried

To be your companion

And stay by your side

There are times that I trust you

And times that I fear

Times I can't find you

And times you are near.

I have some faith

Yet, I have some doubt

I wish I wasn't confused

Wish I could figure this out

Father, help me have faith

Help me know what to do

Help me so one day,

I may return back to you.

Surrender

Rising smoke

Blazing through the night

Anguished screams

Ringing in my ears

The field is lined

With those who already lost

Bleeding and sore

Bombarded with pain

I stumble

A sword on the right

White flag on the left

The farther I fall

The higher it rises

Who will win

Who will lose

Only time will tell

Questions

What do you do when your world's falling apart

Tumbling around 'til you don't know how to find your way out?

What do you do when you feel so alone that a room full of friends doesn't help?

If life's a river then I'm drowning.

If it's a rose I'm bleeding from the thorns

If life's a journey them I'm lost

If it's a tree I'm the dead branch.

Where do you go when your so full of fear even home isn't safe?

Where do you go when all you can think about is getting to a different place?